| Wednesday, August 4th, 2004 |
| 10:41 pm |
Changes
Lots of changes this week. Yesterday I spent time moving most of my stuff out of home. I am really looking forward to the freedom and being a little closer to the city. Today was my first day at my new job. Everyone seems nice though very quite. To be honest I felt quite bored and like I didn't have much to do. I spent most of the day reorganisng the filing system. I hope tomorrow is not so underwhelming. I guess that is pretty much it to report. Also there seems to be a lot more hierarchy in the organisation than others i have worked in. I hope this won't create too much of a problem. I am grateful though for this opportunity should be great for my career. I also found out that I get really cheap travel which should be good. |
| Thursday, July 29th, 2004 |
| 11:36 pm |
Hmmm
I am going to work at writing in this more. THis will be my last weekend at home before i move out. Very exciting yet a little scary. I also start my new job next week. I have had a few days at home so today I treated myself to a trip to my beautican and some shopping. I do feel so much better after some retail therapy. I bought a really nice pair of cords. Tomorrow is my last day of work at SG. It will be wierd saying goodbye after 2 years. Yet it is also exciting. I don't really have anything else left to do. |
| Monday, July 12th, 2004 |
| 9:55 pm |
It's a little bit funny
How everythings the same. I am starting to get really disolutioned with things. I just can't seem to find the job I need and catch it. I't s crazy i seem to flunk the second interviews or something. It's crazy that i can get paid lots of money consulting to get other people jobs yet I can't seem to bag my own. On other news - I am moving out of home in a month. YAY. I think it is just the change of environment I need. Afterall don't they say that a change is as good as a holiday. And the final story this evening relates to Saturday night. I went to a Dress Rehersal 30th for a good friend of Tims' and I just want to record publicly that I am nowhere near ready for that kind of thing. I have to keep reminding myself that I am closer to 21 that 30. It has certainly given me a good reality check and slowed my interst in buying property for a while. We found this gorgeous town house (4 beds) a couple of weeks ago. Nearly brand new and I really thought it was the right thing for us. Though now I have decided that it is a really good idea for us to just chill out a little for now. Anyway thats enough random thoughts and events for now. |
| Sunday, March 21st, 2004 |
| 2:55 pm |
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| 1:46 pm |
It's funny
It;s only in times of total procrastination. That I write in this journal. TOday i am procrastinating because I have to write a presentation for an interview next weekend. I really hope I get the job and then I will be flying out to the US within a few months. Probably only do a 6 month contract. In other news Tim thinks its the stupidest thing I have ever done and somehow equates it to my love for him. However I totally disgaree I think it 's just somethign I have to do. |
| Saturday, December 13th, 2003 |
| 12:09 am |
Friday
Some weeks its an achievement to make it through to Friday and this week sure was one of them. Been a hard week . Yesterday was the worst though when I get into work and decide to print my resume as I am looking for new jobs from my new computer. hmmm would have been a good idea if IT hadn't defaulted the printer to my bosses office printer. I was running around for 10 minutes trying to find my resume before someone else did and then I come back to my desk and realised what had happened. I had printed my resume to my bosses printer. I went into her office to ask if I could check her printer however it was too late. She said that she had just put some of my things on my desk. I return to my desk to my find my resume. I got back in there and try and explain things to her though she dismisses it saying I don't need to give her explanations. Unlucky Anyone had anything more embarrassing than that in the past 24 hours/. |
| Sunday, December 7th, 2003 |
| 7:22 pm |
hmmmm
Weekend- Well I went to a party last night near the beach. I haven't been to this kind of party for ages. You know the kind of party that leaves you will self esteem issues after you leave. It was near the beach and I hardly knew anyone there. So on a scale of 1-10 it was a 2. K and I ended up coming home and talking to really late about the meaning of life and why things are so complicated. I wish there were some guys out there that actually had drive and ambition in life. Anyway at least I have T and he comes back from Chicago this weekend. I am meant to be applying for jobs on the internet though I just can't motivate myself enough. |
| Sunday, September 21st, 2003 |
| 12:14 pm |
Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delila.
All about I I see: A road with a v intersection and lots of choices I need: to empower myself to change I want: space , independence and acceptance and to feel part of things I have: a good man I wish: upon a star I love:my good man I miss: the years and time that keeps passing I fear: the future. That my feelings will never change. I feel: Regeret over the friendships that seem to have decayed over the past 12 months. I hear: nothing except the buzz of the Harddrive I smell:nothing I crave: excitement I wonder WHY weren't you meant for me? Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delila. Someday we will know. Why the skies are blue. Someday we'll know why weren't you meant for me |
| 12:09 pm |
Isn't if funny
I just re-read an entry I made last year and found my goals so I don't need to make any new ones. I just need to turn somethigns into action points. I feel strangely detached from everyone and lonely. Self Improvement Mental note to self after I have handedx in essay * Go to gym and go on action weightloss plan to loose weight before Christmas. *Find out who my real friends are and start being a friend to them * email my firends who are overesea * become an independent woman again * Do something to increase my awareness of culture each week * Get back on track with God * Start keeping a real journal so I can learn from muy previous mistakes and remember how good my life really is. * Organise my holidays * see my cousins more often and make an effort ot hang out iwth them |
| 11:55 am |
Fast Forward
I guess the last year has gone in Fast Forward and now I am back again. I have got over all my love sick sadness and moved on. It's funny how things change within a year. Some of my friends are getting married, others are moving out. And well I just seem to be at a standstill . Not much has changed. Work is not so crash hot yet I feel little power or desire to change the situation right now. I guess I am working out whether I should go overseas for a few months or not. I guess I feel that I am too scared to take the plunge and step out in faith. I guess I do have someone I care for and love here and it is hard for me to leave them behind though at the same time I know this is a great period of opportunity and that if I don't JUMP now then the opportunity will be lost. Last night I went and saw a play called "Mums the Word" I have to say that it has totally turned me off ever being a mother. Although it made motherhood out to be a comedy of errors. It made me feel like the most lonely and difficult situation in the world and like you are caught ina reoccuring nightmnare. I guess my other half of me will be relieved. So I have a lot of choices right now and alot of priorities. I feel like i need space to work things out and as much as I love him I feel like my other half is taking over 3/4 of me now and needs to give me some space. I guess I need to work on different priorites. 1. To work out my beleifs - This will provide me with a framework to live. 2. Pray how to put my beleifs into action 3. Make a list of priorities and goals in my life. 4. Plan how I will achieve each of them without getting distracted. 5. Step closer to sucess. The first goal that just jumped into my head was to do with my health . I need to get that right. I have been going to the gym 5 times a week and I think that is good for me and I need to keep that up. I also need to continuting challenging myself. I have been reading some amazing biographies of people who have really stood up for their faith and done some amazing things. I need to learn how to step out in my own life and make a difference. I feel confined by where I am right now and what I am doing in the monotonous. I also need to make a decsion on my career and life for the next few years. Well I guess this has been enough of my random thoughts for now. It's 12pm and I haven't had a shower yet so I better go get dressed and start something constructive in my day. I guess I have managed to clean my desktop off this mornign which is a pretty huge achievement. I also slept in this morning. The weather outside is uninspiring. |
| Tuesday, November 12th, 2002 |
| 9:59 pm |
Concerning
Wow it is hard writing somehting of any meaning knowing that half the world can read it. I really would like to get over my writers block because I normally write so much better. Well I handed in my law assignment yay. I am in a really bad mood tonight for no particular reason. I had an ok day at work I guess. Just got an email from the girl I am going overseas with in Jan reminidng me that we hand' spoken in like 9 mths. Yay that makes me feel good. To top it all off I am not even sure if America might go to war by Jan . If it does I am cancelling my trip to Eurpoe. I am so nervous about the whole thing as it is. It doesn't feel right like my trip last time. I am also nervous about the men in my life. It will be our 9mth Anniversary on Thursday. Time flys when you are having fun right? I feel really aggetated. And WOH everyone if you know me can you please refrain from getting married anytime soon. I just got my first engagement party invite and kitchen tea invite in one week and that is way too much for me to think about now. I guess this is another random chatter Until another time |
| Monday, November 11th, 2002 |
| 1:06 pm |
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| Sunday, November 10th, 2002 |
| 3:08 pm |
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| 2:57 pm |
Self Improvement
Mental note to self after I have handedx in essay * Go to gym and go on action weightloss plan to loose weight before Christmas. *Find out who my real friends are and start being a friend to them * email my firends who are overesea * become an independent woman again * Do something to increase my awareness of culture each week * Get back on track with God * Start keeping a real journal so I can learn from muy previous mistakes and remember how good my life really is. * Organise my holidays * see my cousins more often and make an effort ot hang out iwth them |
| 2:55 pm |
Why procrastinate
I have just spent the last 5 hours procrastinating and now have a sick feeling. I still have to get my essay done. This topic of tort reform interested me though the interest wore off fast after approximately an hour |
| 11:09 am |
WOW
Isnt it cool that thanks to the www . I can pull up any newspaper article, or piece or legislations within just a few clicks. Certainly beats the days when we use to go to libraries. I am about to complete a degree in Business Law and have been to the library on 2 occassions this year. |
| Saturday, November 9th, 2002 |
| 9:30 pm |
WOW
What out of World has been happening. hmm One of my friends just got engaged which is way over scary. I have to wrtie 3000 words By Monday Relationship botehring me Im bored. |
| 9:28 pm |
Funny how?
Its funny how things you said just 3 mths ago sound so dumb now. Give me some time to get over this. But a momemt is all he can spare Its funny how I only ever write in my journal after listening to the Whitlams |
| Wednesday, June 26th, 2002 |
| 8:39 am |
CHARLIE NO 3 _ The Whitlams
He'll need some time to get over this. But a moment is all he can spare His buddies out there in the city lights And he is trying to care See him offering himself to the wrold Staring down from the fifty-sixth floor I'd be happy just to catch him again We go out we we don't always come back The night pressing in on his weary mind. There's a half-eaten moon in the sky Nothing is calling him back to bed And no-one is saying goodbye See him offering himself to the world. Staring down from the fifty-sixth floor He's not happy it's the weekend again We go out because we go Back and Back |
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